The way I am

I'm listening to a song that says, "I can't believe you love my heart". I try to live out my life loving people. God built me to long for relationships, which is why I think my mind/heart lingers so much on the idea of finding a companion. I've loved people, but I've never been able to adore someone. I don't know where I'm going with this, other than, I really want someone to allow me to adore them. But that's for another day.

A LOT OF STUFF HAPPENING IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW! It's pretty cool. I'm overwhelmed but totally in one of the best ways ever. I'm moving back to NC at the end of December. I'm so stoked. I've been praying about what God wants me to do, and where He wants to place me.... but heard nothing. And it was scary. But then I remembered the little tid bit on "free will". God always lets us make our own choices... but He wants us to ask Him first. The cool thing is, I felt like He was pushing to make this decision for myself. And so I did, and it has upset a lot of people. Namely my parents, but my mom is just fearful of my financial state of being. I have 300 dollars as of now. 100 of which will be used to put gas in my car to get home. I will be "homeless" for a little while, hopping from couch to couch, but thats cool. I don't think God really wants us to just always be comfortable where we are. I know He wants us to find comfort in Him, but thats different. (On a side note, I have killer heart burn and firefox is lagging... bummer status)

Recently I've felt the need to start a ministry in downtown Charlotte. God has always given me this passion for the homeless, so I'm gunna run with it. I don't want to give to much away on it but it's called "Love Light District". So watch out, because God is going to do some cool things. I'm so stoked about this because this thing is SO much bigger than ourselves, and that's the purpose. This will fail unless we put God first. So be praying about that puh-leeze :)

Our God will never be finished with us. Be prepared for constant change. But remember that we've been invited to sit with God at the river of joy, the river of life. Through pain, there is joy.... so I'm learning. So my friends, here's to a new beginning. Thank God for infinite mulligans.

My mind is shot at the moment... and I can't really decipher my emotions and thoughts... so its probably time to crack open a cold one (Coke Zero) sit back, and watch some TV until I pass out. We leave for Florida on Saturday.

PS.. Pray for your city...

Thats about it for now.. maybe i'll be more "poetic" tomorrow night, if i even decide to blog :)

serve. love. connect. be blessed.
Jordan