star(s)ucks

I'm bored... so im going to blog. Im surrounded by women... I need friends. I just drove an hour and a half to come and try and make friends and needless to say, that was a failure. Being lonely is a no bueno. The ladies next to me are talking about ways to serve and its awesome to hear but I can't just butt in.. because that then makes me a creeper and i refuse to carry that status. Why cant I just find someone with a bible next to their laptop sipping on a coffee... I need a Seth Snider in here now... ASAP! C'mon God... do it to it.

Nope? Okay...

So i got the news the other day that my planned trip to NC is a no go... finances just arnt agreeing with us right now for me to take a 9 hour trip to NC and back, which in a way makes perfect sense... i just miss my friends. I wish i wasnt so different looking so people would come and talk to me. i wish THEY could make the first move... but alas.. this is not a perfect world :(

im striving to stay strong through this entire process... its new and scary but at the same time... i love being tested and pushed to new limits... ok im lying... i hate it... but i know its needed, so... i'll try and persevere!

All i keep thinking about are the cheesy sayings of, "with God on my side and can do anything!". I think people should understand its deffinately NOT that easy. I wish it was. I wish it was easy to have faith but noone said it would be easy. Having a purpose kinda sucks sometimes... but totally worth it in the end.

I really want to find a church to get connected to. It's so hard though. I want to go somewhere where i dont stick out like a sore thumb... but more so I just want to be used... and if I can be used at a church that thinks im crazy, then so be it.

This is one of those blogs where i just blurb alot of nonsense out... deal with it. I found out I have friends from college that live near me... but their busy alot... so we havnt hung out yet. I refuse to let sleeping become my hobby of choice though... even though im not too far from it.

I just have to keep telling myself... Love God, love people, change the world.... but how can i love people if i cant even meet them. BAH! Im making a shirt that says, "I love Jesus, please come talk to me!". Maybe being blunt will work more in my favor then sitting and paying for wireless use to write on my blog and talk on facebook :)

I need a refill... pause....................................

Refill accomplished

I think my main thing right now is learning to count my blessings. I have a roof over my head.. food to eat.. a vehicle to drive.. clothes to wear... and despite the travel, coffee to drink. Im blessed more than i deserve.

Mom told me tonight that Bob wanted to pay for me to take classes at a near by university... just one more thing that im blessed with. I think im going to accept. I need to go back to school and it seems like one of the best ways to meet new people.. even if it isnt until January.

I joined some groups on facebook with students from NKU which is the university i'd be attending... Northern Kentucky University is nice and its only 30 minutes from home... I've also been looking at art classes near newport which is next to downtown KY/Cincinnati. Im just ready to see what God is going to teach me through this entire experience.

Alright... prayers are welcome :)

Be blessed as I have been, even when its hard to admit,
Jordan